Backstage With CHLOE LILAC
As gigs are on pause, Home is the new Backstage. Get behind the scenes with Chloe Lilac this week.
Following the release of her new EP, DOUCHEBAG, earlier this year, Brooklyn-based Chloe Lilac invites us backstage and shows us around her vibrant world as we discuss personal growth, challenging parts of lockdown, and her hopes and dreams for 2021.
What advice would you give to your pre-lockdown self?
The advice I would give to my pre-lockdown self would be that change is good. Change can be scary, but change is necessary in order to really grow and experience life in new ways. The people that you know now you may not know forever, and that’s okay. Family is so important. Also, not advice, but you like to be alone way more than you think you do! It’s all going to be okay.
How, if at all, did lockdown impact your music making and producing process?
Lockdown completely changed my musical process. I went from doing sessions in person, touring, having meetings, to being at home 90% of the time. It was devastating, especially as an up and coming artist. I felt like it was such a blow to my progress. I was totally wrong on that front. In quarantine I had the hardest, most brutal writers block I have ever experienced. 6 months long. However, when I came out of it, I started writing like crazy and with so many new people. Quarantine, as intense as it is, has allowed me to meet and collaborate with talented people from all over the world on zoom. I’ve also had the blessing of working with a few of my idols, which has been so unreal. I’m so grateful for technology. I’m so grateful that I can still create, collaborate and work.
What has been the most unexpected/challenging part of lockdown, whether pleasant or unpleasant?
The most unpleasant part of lockdown was the transition. I was in a bad place in my life as it was, I was terrified to be alone (so much so that my New Years’ resolution was to learn how to be alone), and had barely any connection with myself. A pandemic hitting was the cherry on top. My depression and anxiety just completely took control. There were days I would just cry. Like the whole day. And stare at my wall. It was so bad.
How would you sum up your 2020 in one sentence?
SADDLE UP, BITCH!
If you had a quarantine character, what was it like?
Quarantine character? I had to google that. If you guys mean like a video game character, I guess I would just be in my room either painting, playing guitar, singing, or watching cartoons on my fire escape at 2am with a blanket and tea.
Name 5 things that got you through lockdown.
My manager (thank you, Alex)
What’s the most interesting thing you discovered over lockdown (could be a revelation about yourself, a new TV show, a new hobby)?
The most interesting thing (probably only to me) is how it turns out I hate being around people for more than 3 hours. I love to be alone. I had no idea that was ever going to be my vibe. My whole life I’ve been living as an extrovert, when really I just needed some alone time. Who knew!!
What lockdown trend do you think we should take into the future, and which ones should we ditch?
A lockdown trend I think we should take with us is taking space for yourself, the people you love, and your hobbies outside of work. Also personal growth. Before it felt like life moved too fast to start that thing you always wanted to do. Or really take some time, pause, and reflect. Life should never move that fast. I think we should also take actually asking people how they are and how their families are, versus the old superficial way.
What are your hopes and dreams for 2021?
My dream for 2021 is the next phase of my project. Stay tuned. >:)
What does music mean to you?
Wow, what a question. I don’t want to know life without music. Music is everything to me. It always has been and will always be everything to me. It’s gotten me through everything in my life.